主啊，這人將來如何?

Turning his head, Peter noticed the disciple Jesus loved following right behind. When Peter noticed him, he asked Jesus, “Master, what’s going to happen to him?” Jesus said, “If I want him to live until I come again, what’s that to you? You—follow me.” That is how the rumor got out among the brothers that this disciple wouldn’t die. But that is not what Jesus said. He simply said, “If I want him to live until I come again, what’s that to you?”

(John 21:20-23, MSG)

我常常問耶穌這個問題。

「關你什麼事?」耶穌是這樣回答。這個答案，我真是想了很久。
喂，這種事不關己的態度，那關心別人是從何談起呢? 心裡在反抗。

尤其是心裡被別的人和事刺激起來，心裡很難不問。我控制不了。

有時控制不了的事，我不會歸咎於自己。我的生命太多污點，有軟弱太正常了。
我就等候，看看上帝怎樣回答。

今早沒有機會一個人默想，但心裏一直徘徊一個聲音。
打開聖經，看Message，看見一個keyword。
"What’s that to you? You—follow me."

You，你。

是的。當你問耶穌一個問題，你是為了什麼呢?
你是真的為了別人，還是為了自己?
如果是為了自己心中的苦毒與不安，那上帝就會反問：關你什麼事?

人生苦短，生命的指標，是要指向哪一個方向?

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星期日的講道精彩。

傳道人用約西亞的經歷說未來。
當一個得到耶和華空前讚賞的王，政績如日方中的時候，
被告知他多年來所做的宗教改革，
最終肯定無法讓猶大免於被滅；
當一個人發現自己所做的在身後終是徒勞，
那這人應該怎樣自處?

約西亞的選擇是繼續做他應該做的事，活好今日。

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放下自己，不再是我，乃是基督在我裏面活著。

What actually took place is this: I tried keeping rules and working my head off to please God, and it didn’t work. So I quit being a “law man” so that I could be God’s man. Christ’s life showed me how, and enabled me to do it. I identified myself completely with him. Indeed, I have been crucified with Christ. My ego is no longer central. It is no longer important that I appear righteous before you or have your good opinion, and I am no longer driven to impress God. Christ lives in me. The life you see me living is not “mine,” but it is lived by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I am not going to go back on that.

Is it not clear to you that to go back to that old rule-keeping, peer-pleasing religion would be an abandonment of everything personal and free in my relationship with God? I refuse to do that, to repudiate God’s grace. If a living relationship with God could come by rule-keeping, then Christ died unnecessarily.

(Galatians 2:19-21, MSG)

啊，這太震撼我了。

這是我的功課!